Day 4: A habit you wish you didn't have & something you are looking forward to.
The main habit I wish I didn't have is talking negatively about myself and not being able to accept compliments. I am the first person to degrade myself and say I'm ugly, fat, etc. I also have a hard time believing compliments. I always say thank you, but I think to myself "they are just being nice." I don't feel that people are being honest. It is extremely unhealthy to think that way about yourself, but in my heart I believe those things. As stated in a previous blog, this is a work in progress and I am hopeful of ridding myself of this habit.
Something I am looking forward to is the Texas Rangers Spring Training trip I have planned with Rachel and Ashley. We leave next Wednesday, 3/7! We have been planning this since the 2011 season ended. Can't believe it is almost here. We are staying in Surprise and have tickets to 3 games. This should be an extremely fun trip!!!
I do the same things (talk down to myself) ... trying to get better though.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad I'll miss you girls by just DAYS in Surprise. Lacy (lkcollum on twitter) and I are staying somewhere in Phoenix. Surprise was too expensive. :-/
I am the exact same way. I actually asked a Twitter friend the other day if they were disappointed when they met me in person. Haha. They thought I was crazy. Why would they be disappointed? Told the person I was afraid the me in reality was a let down. The person was so nice, said I was better in reality. It is hard to cast aside that self-bashing when you have become an expert at it.
ReplyDeleteGirls...this is a tough thing to stop! I can honestly say that I haven't figured out how yet. Laura, I completely identify with your Twitter meeting. However, the person I met actually stopped talking to me and unfollowed me after I met them. That doesn't do great things to someone who already has low self-esteem. I chalked that up to this...I didn't need that person in my life anyway! Unfortunately what that experience validated was that I shouldn't extend myself and try to meet new people. I am slowly getting past that, but man it is a struggle! Having zero confidence in myself is so unattrative and I need to get over it!
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